10.12.10

Today,10 December is the worst day of my life. Woke up at 1 something in the afternoon, I was really nervous to know about my final result that will be out by 3. Everything that I'd been working for over these 2 months will be shown in just a piece of paper with not more than 20 words written on it.Once I reached college, my heartbeat beats hundreds times faster than normal and I hope my student number is not in the list posted near the reception, better than seeing my incredibly low maths marks.First, I thought that I'm going to fail maths lone but I failed both english and maths, what a shame.I really stopped talking for awhile because if I just failed my maths I could have two options either change my stream or change my course intake. I should not failed my english. Then, I went to the Dean's office and she explained that I got very low mark in my english final test. At first, I didn't believe that I would failed my english. But, nothing I can do about it.I got 5.5 which the passing mark is 5.75. It is so ridiculous really.She said she will help me to appeal my test paper but then it useless now.I have the only option which is to do the repeat in february. If I shouldn't hang over that night to study for my maths, I won't failed my english. I was damn awake during maths test but I can't concentrate during english test and slept for few minutes.Well, right now what I can do is just not much than regret.To say the truth, this would be my greatest failure in my life and I hate to do something that I've done before. I really need time for this. My parents are very disappointed but I know they try not to express it. How I wished I could bring back the time and make up my mistake.

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